A Stumbler's Walk | THE QUESTION

And the disciples said to him, "Where are we to get enough bread in such a desolate place to feed so great a crowd?"
-- Matthew 15:33

The question sounds familiar. The whole scene feels like a pause and repeat. For the reader of Matthew the two massive picnics come in consecutive chapters. Scholars however, set the two at months apart - different locations, different details, and a couple different take-aways; (all of which are interesting, but not the point of this post).

I am nearly amazed at the disciples' question. Nearly. They have seen Jesus come through time after time. Why would they imagine he won't do it again?

I could understand if one said to another with a wink and elbow to the ribs, "Watch this...," then knowingly asked the question. But I don't think it's the case. In fact, Jesus initiates the discussion. Unlike when he fed 5,000 people before, Jesus indicates he wants to do something special for the people. And for some reason the disciples immediately go to the place of question and disbelief.

They've witnessed the miracles. They have experienced the glory. Yet the desolation around them and their (perceived) lack of resources seem more real.

And they ask the question.

I do not think God is offended by our questions. If he really is God, then he is certainly not shaken by them. I do think at times our questions (and actions) bring pain to his heart.

At times our questions reveal a lack of understanding of who God is. Sometimes they demonstrate our lack of trust. Some expose that we believe more in the circumstances and situations around us than we do in God; in his purpose and provision.

I recall Jesus' response to Philip in the upper room on the night of Jesus' arrest; "Have I been with you so long, and you still do not know me, Philip?" (John 14:9).

The God who spun stars into the heavens and created platypuses (platypi?) is the God who knows your name. He is intimately acquainted with your heart - your fears, regrets, and hopes. He was there in your past, and he has a future for you.

May I make two quick statements of application? (It is a Sunday morning after all.)

God's purpose (in and through us) is not dependent on our resources. 

God's resources are not dependent on our situation. 

God, the landscape is sometimes desolate, and my resources scarce, but that is not failure, it is opportunity.

For now...

D